Question:
Hi everyone, its me 
I had this weird dream and I was wondering if anyone has any thoughts or ideas on it. I mean after I tell it that is. I wouldn’t expect anyone to have thoughts and ideas just like that. okay so here it is. and then I’ll have my questions after. I was dreaming that I switched personalities and I was this little kid, talking like a little kid and everything and yet I was still there watching and hoping no one noticed. Then I switched back and I just started talking to ppl like nothing happened. I was wondering. Does that sound like I’m trying to make myself think I’m DID? I also dreamt that I looked in the mirror and my eyes were all weird. One was looking straight ahead and the other was off to the side one way or the other. I looked wired in the mirror with my eyes looking all funny but I could see fine. Then when I tried to focus in on what eye was looking at me, I felt all d*zzy and my eyes were like rolling around in my head. It was totally wierd. I was wondering if this is related to the first dream. Does anyone have dreams like that? I was reading the posts that were written earlier like about the end of Sept., bout feeling like one is being drugged or coming out of anethisia when trying to wake up. I have those dreams too. So I decided I would see if anyone has dreams about switching and stuff. See I’m suppose to be on the DDNOS side of the continum and I was wondering if I’m not happy there and trying to convince myself that I’m DID. Well, thanks if anyone read this and if you did and have any thoughts at all I’d like to hear them. Any old sort of thought will work. I have had similar dreams like this and wondered the same thing then. pp — For more information about this service, send e-mail to:
Response:
As you know, there are no definite lines between DDNOS and DID.
It’s funny to be reading this post today because last night at group the subject came up of what constitutes a DID diagnosis as opposed to any other dissociative disorder. My T’s answer was that the ONLY differential information, once it is established that one has a DD, is that to be DID one has to have amnesia between the alters and the host (not necessarily between the alters themselves, just the host has to have memory blackouts or unawareness of the alters.) Also, a person who has DID, who has since become co-conscious, is no longer DID, but would then be further down on the continuum. The way she put it is that DIDs have one more step to go through than the rest of us on the continuum, but it could be the hardest step of all. She also said, which I found very interesting, that DIDs tend to move more quickly through the process because they have long ago learned that they haven’t got as much to lose as those of us who still have some facade of normalcy in our lives. In other words, they take bigger risks toward being vulnerable and exposing pain than the rest of us do, but for them, it isn’t as big a risk as it would seem to us. My T runs two therapy groups which used to be one big group before I came along. When it split, all of the DIDs went into one group (just because the time was more convenient for all of them) and the other group is composed entirely of DDNOSs. Apparently the two groups are now extremely different, with the non-DID group being much safer and less gutsy in the issues raised and discussed. Just thought I’d add that as an interesting thing. The non-DIDs used to rely on the DIDs to raise the tough issues, and then they’d join in once they got triggered. Now, apparently, no one has the guts to dive right in to tough issues, unless they get accidentally caught off guard. Since I never experienced the other group, I was just playing it by ear, being the new kid. Now we’ve all been challenged to develop ways that will help us take bigger risks. The alternative, of course, is to take 5 times as long to get healthier. My apologies to anyone who reads this post and is of the opinion that being DID or DDNOS is not something one would want to "get healthier" from. LeeLee
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