Question:
Ever have someone want to find out who you are – all of you? and then get to know you and then want to make love, just to see what it would be like – with a mentally ill person? it’s sick isn’t it.. just happened.. and – i want to stop the world ad get off.. i mean – now – i’m like the plague.. and the dissociation stuff – is so bad right now – that i actually lost a full day sitting still in one spot.. i’m in school.. and missed the day of school.. and thought that i was actually on time – to find out that it was a day later.. no more letting people in.. all the bigs and littles – are in so much pain.. and – we are tired of it all.. has this happened to any of you guys? how can people be so cruel? did i/we put ourself into risk? i don’t know what to say.. just wanted to convey this to you guys.. sometimes – i wish i were different.. maybe wish i was a little boy again.. or much older and had been through life already.. or even wish i was a girl – sounds screwed up doesn’t it? sorry – just wanted to tell you guys where i know that maybe you all understand.. i’ve been diagnosed DID for about 17 years now.. actually was as a kid, but they didn’t call it that then.. had even 8 years of people putting the tag of MPD on me.. i don’t know what i am.. ugggggggggggggg mark
Response:
Hello Mark, I haven’t had an experience such as this one but nonetheless, I hink that your perception of it being cruel is right on! Very sad that this happened. We may have problems and solutions around dissociating but can you imagine what this person’s problem(s) might be to go out and do something like this? This person has problems too and just bc you are who you are *doesn’t* mean that it was your fault. Try not to take on this person’s shame for their behavior. I hope you and all within can someday find it safe again to trust. The problem *isn’t* that you trusted but that some ppl are untrustworthy. Sierra
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